Today I turned 30.
I was fine this morning, been fine all day, then at about 3 I felt like my head needed something but didn’t know what, and everything became surreal.
I was pretty sure it was some kind of panic reaction to the classroom and I figured that I would get over it. So, I packed my bags, mum came over, I went to the loo…all the normal things. My head still felt like someone had stuffed my nose with cotton wool but I tried to carry on regardless.
Took a wrong turn on the way to college, and realised that maybe the fluffiness should be listened to. O had a bad night last night and I thought it was a reaction to this mixed with the panic about panics in the classroom.
Got to college, got changed, tummy grumbled, sat on loo…yep.
So I went to explain to my tutor who sent me home.
But now I feel awful, and not just because my tum is gurgling unhappily and my face actually aches but because I’ve seen this before. This is so important and I’m cross I didn’t stay. I can’t drop out. I have to do this. At the moment I’m so busy feeling like I’ve let everyone down tonight that I just can’t see the bigger picture.
I think I really need to sleep.