Today I’m going to interrupt the theme and darken the mood because today, quite frankly, I feel like shit. Awful stinky curry shit. Kebab shit.
Once again, for those of you who do not like negativity or feel you may be triggered by someone whinging, please look away now.
Yes you. The only one left reading. Get a cuppa and then lend me your eyes and some sympathy while I feel sorry for myself.
I’m hurting because I’m exhausted.
I’m hurting because of the injustice I have been served in a pathetic situation which is not even my fucking problem.
I’m hurting because I’m reminded every time one of my kids misbehaves and I tell them off how close I am to having Social Services on my case FOR A CRIME I DID NOT COMMIT!
I’m hurting because my organisation has failed and the house is once again looking like we have been burgled.
I’m hurting because once again work gave me renewed hope and havent even bothered to inform me I haven’t been successful so I am left in limbo.
I’m hurting because my coccyx injury is twinging and it makes me feel sick.
I’m hurting because I pretty much constantly feel sick anyway.
I’m hurting because playgroup didn’t hold the door open for me so I had to struggle out with L clinging to one hand and a car seat, bookbag and artwork in the other.
I’m hurting because every driving error is my fault.
I’m hurting because an idiotic man swore at me as he almost ran over my kids (we were walking back to the car in the carpark and he was going forwards!!)
I’m hurting because the fucking roadworks are a headache and chore every single day.
I’m hurting because every car journey has a screaming sound track. Every night has the same tune. Someone change the record already.
I’m hurting because she starfished in the carseat in the carpark and I screamed. I’m fully waiting a telling off.
I’m hurting because even though they are both asleep I know I won’t be able to sleep.
I’m hurting because I can’t do more.
I’m hurting because I want to be likeable and pleasant and positive but I mostly feel anti-social, bitchy, and negative.
I’m just hurting.