As you can imagine, everything at the moment is a litte bit hazy.
I’ve given a start date on the new job, although I’m still prevented from sharing my news with my collegues. Office politics.
I know there will be at last two people who will be super gutted to hear about it. Maybe I should wait to tell them in person. Haha. I’m not evil. Really I’m not. Just sick of certain things kicking me repeatedly in the face.
And I get my name on the door. Yeeeeeehhhhhaaaaa!!!
Ls epilepsy has kicked us though. Really kicked us. It’s a life changing thing, you know? Selfishly I keep thinking that I can’t let this ruin my chances at this job. I can’t seem unreliable. I’ve not told my new boss about it because I don’t want him to regret his decision to employ a) a woman in an extremely male dominated environment and b) a mother who needs to leave the office all the time.
I remember I took a lot of time off with L being ill before going on mat leave. Just coughs, colds and viruses, but still.
It might be hard to persuade OH that he will have to take over at least some of the responsibility for sick-care.
I also feel a bit like I haven’t had a chance to be happy or excited about the new job. Mainy because I have been worrying myself extremely thin about L and her diagnosis.
Not really helping the anxiety.