But I have been writing.
I haven’t been able to find time to get to the computer so blogging has been limited. Most of my writing has been done old school.
Anyway, today I am having a complete confidence failure.
What if I’m late?
What if I’m early?
What if they’re pissed off because until I purchase my salon stuff all I have are maternity jeans, old t-shirts and trainers to wear?
What if they decide the outbreak on my chin is a hygiene fail?
What if one of my kids gets sick today?
What if I get sick today?
What if my period comes back and I don’t have pads?
What if my boobs become so painful I can’t take part?
What if my boobs spray milk everywhere DURING taking part?
What if O doesn’t eat before I go?
What if he needs feeding but refuses the bottle and spoon?
What if the milk I’ve expressed and lovingly cared for is sour?
What if they don’t like me?
What if I don’t like them?
What if I don’t like doing it?
What if I think positively for just a second?
What if it’s fabulous?
What if it changes my life?
What if I meet some wonderful people?
What if O takes the milk no problems?